Farewell 2010 & Welcome 2011

Ah... It seems like time passes like the wind. Um I suppose I didn't have much to say about it but somehow I do feel like I'm going to miss this year a lot I suppose. With all those happiness and sadness, all come together to become a bundle of memory that will be stored inside my brain system

"Eh it's over already?"

I suppose there are a lot of things that had happen in these years, bad things and good things. Made new friends, and so so on. Well I even manage to get something special too this year I would say. Um? Want to know what it is? It's classified information ^_~

But really, for some reason, this year really went like a breeze, and plus I never even realized that soon I'll be graduating as well within next year. Ah... How am I going miss this one... I was hoping to spend time in this year but I guess all will be memories I would say


"Here we'll welcome 2011 in our lives!"

Pretty much I would not go much of a detail of it or I may end up crying here when writing this blog. So my year 2010, I wish you goodbye. It was fun really. And here I am will be standing here, waiting for the New Year to come by. 2011, bring on! Give us the excitement and adventure that we going to have soon!

The Changing Reality

So who says I don't have any jealousy in me? I suppose I do I guess. And no, that that kind of horribly jealous that I wanted to end up throwing myself out of the window, just sometimes I do wish I can do the things like some people can during my younger age. Since that's not possible, best to move on right~?

And as far as I can see, it does seems to change...Quite a lot, within 21 years on my life (Yes yes, I just manage to reach 21 years old a couple of days ago on when writing this post ^^;) Since during my childhood times, it's like most children are more towards things outdoors like...Lets see.. Playing hide and seek, those police and thieves game, kite flying, playing as Power Rangers and some other sorts of things. Nothing that concerns much on technologies.

Now, well...Guess its rather different, most of the children I see manage to get a laptop in the early stage, PSP, Nintendo DS, PS3, Xbox 360, Wii, and other kinds of things that they could actually do at this time. It's quite interesting on how they can actually obtain these things easily, even for me, I can't hardly get a PS1 when I was young.

Not to say it's a bad thing on not getting them ^^;;
Just talking about it that's all

But yeah, I guess, things does change a lot on how the olden days and the modern days are right now. Maybe some are still not able to get them but, usually I do see most of the children get what they want I would say. Either way, even I don't get those kinds of stuff like some others are, I'm still be able to be happy about it at the end ^^.

Perhaps I can obtain them, but by that time arrives, I would be aging. Maybe I'll be some sort of old person who still play Rune Factory Frontier in Wii then when the time comes by~

Birthday Days

Being a bit more free for today, I suppose I would just write my blog for today I would say, apart from some people bugging me in Facebook that is but anyhow, it seems like my day has finally passed as I celebrated my 21st birthday on the 18th December.


Eto.. I suppose this might be a short post but still, I can say I did enjoy myself with my family during my celebration of birthday. I suppose I still did not expect much from the whole thing but I did enjoy myself either way.

Plus, even my friend and my Facebook friends did give me their birthday wishes as well, so I'm rather happy about it. In addition, I did get a special one too for this year. For me, even a small piece of happiness that they give me, I'll be happy about it really~


So overall, even it's not a big 21st birthday party like other people does, or even get bundles of presents like any other children around that is lucky enough, but still, I'm happy about it either way ^^~

Support Unit or Negligence Unit?

"Ug...My head...Man I need to get more rest soon..."

Sorry that I never really update my blog that much considering the bundles of assignments that has been piling up day by day. Not to mention I'm having a lack of time of doing them as well. I do hope one way or another I'll be able to complete them nicely before November starts. Since my head is spinning around out of tiredness and fever, I would like to put this up before I head for my rest.

I'm sure you all wonder why I set the title of "Support or Negligence" as my topic this time. Actually what I wanted to pointed out is about what parents are doing towards their children. I have been observing on the problems that some people have been through and it seems like there is a little trouble when it comes to parents taking care of their children nowadays. True, maybe I'm not suitable on talking about this considering I haven't even start my own family but still, I do have my share of ideas on what I wanted to say. Back to the topic that I've wanted to point out, is there a reason why I questioned the capabilities of some parents at the moment? Yeah I do question their capabilities at this time.

Alright, to narrow it down a little more better, I'll take studying as one of the problem that is facing by the children. If the child did not want to study, what should we do? We give them advice and try to persuade them on doing their homework. But, the problem now is, even when the child is trying their hardest to study for the subjects, they are still been label as being a "Lazy" child or even scolded them by throwing all kinds of irrelevant or untrue information. Is there any kinds of problem for a child to study? No right? Pretty much sure the parents suppose to be more supportive on giving them encouragement for them to study better instead of neglecting and throwing tantrum to those children when they wanted to study.

"No really..."
"Do not let your child ended up doing things that would end their life"

Getting the worse of it, after the child was trying their best but failed to archive a result they wanted, for example, the student wanted to get an 'A' but ended up getting a 'B' as a grade, what did the parents do? They didn't encourage them, they insulted them more and even let out a long endless complain for the child to hear. Isn't that interesting, the parents first complain how lazy the child was even when they are studying, and they still continue to complain when the child get a result that can still consider a good one. So, what does the parent really want from their children actually? They can't even make a good decision out of it and all they do is just complain from top to bottom and everything they child does seems wrong. If the parent actually realized, it can actually put a heavy pressure towards the child itself.

"Is it wrong? I studied but they're never satisfied with it"
"It would be worse if I never actually touch the book at all!"
"Either way, both of the route I took seems wrong for them"
"So which one do they want me to do then? I'm confused!"

Its true, that we need to set up a rule for the children to follow. But, complaining or insulting the children that is actually trying to do a good deed out of it isn't the way of parenting. The parents should be supporting more if they child is eager to study, not condemning them till their spirits broke apart. And I'm even sure that in an examination, all parents wanted to see their children score A's in their paper. But if the child didn't pass that expatiation after trying hard, encourage them, not demotivate them off until the state that they think themselves as a useless human being.

Yes like I have said, I may not have much experiance sine I'm still far away of being father of my children, but seeing how some parents treated their children like a bag of rubbish is plain horrible. Anyhow I'm going to stop here for now. That is all I can say about it at the moment. All I could hope for that some of the parents will be able to take note about it one way or another.

Another Passing Days

So here I am again, I suppose this would be another kind of random talking I would just spit out around and I guess I'll have fun a bit with this then. So it seems like during my Hari Raya times, I finally manage to get a week break from campus life. Pretty much things are going well too although I do try to find something to do to keep me occupied for some reason. Not to mention I finally manage to get back to my hometown and celebrate things with my family. It's a good thing that I can at least ease my tense and headache out and enjoy myself for a while.

"Wonder what will I do after this..."

And pretty much I can see I still have some work cut out for me with the assignments that have been left for me to do it. I guess continuing to do it back would be a priority right now. And since I did manage to get a new assignment for someone with the tense of getting it done on the 15 September, I suppose that work is the one that I need to take priority for now. Well I can do four lesson plans without having any sleep with the advancement of going to class after that, pretty much sure I can handle drawing pictures to people without having any sleep I would say.

Why It's Almost Impossible to Change

"If the people's mentality won't change..."
"I don't think the world would change either."

Looks like it's time for me to get a little serious on this one. Although I would understand if people out there would not actually be reading this but anyhow. This time I would really like to express myself what has been bothering me at this moment. For some reason, I didn't really have much of a clue why would race be such a problem in our world anyway. For some reason I don't understand about it at all. True, it may not seem to be my kind of problem to scratch around but still, it really bothers me quite a lot.

Maybe they still don't understand about it somehow. Pretty much myself I can't really explain about it either but, one way or another, I still wish to express myself no matter what the cost is. Look here, from what I see inside myself is a child that is born from two different kinds of world where my parents came from a different group of race. Heck, even I can say that one of my friend has a background that came from three different group of race and we can live in harmony and peace without any kinds of argument whatsoever at all. But somehow, there are still lots of people that can't live together peacefully for some reason.

What's my point on this post you all may ask? What my point is, is there really a reason why we can't co-exist to live with each other peacefully? Is there any kinds of reason at all? Is it because of a small misunderstanding we ended up making it big? Is it because we want to show who is right and who is wrong? Or It is because we want to show who is much more better and much more superior? Somehow, when I see it back, it's rather pointless to be arguing with each other throat.

Seriously, look back on who we are. True, we are different in terms of our skin color, our race, our religion, age and our gender. But really think back deeply inside your mind. We are actually the same one way or another. We are all humans, we all share the same blood color and we all share the same world called Earth. Do we ever encounter a race that has different color of blood? No. Do we ever see a human with a different religion that has 4 legs, 3 eyes and 4 legs? No. Reality check, we are all humans.

But still, there are still people out there who wasn't able to think deeply in their minds. For me, I don't care what kind of race, religion whatsoever it is. All I know is, among all of us human in this world, there is bad and there is good people. There is no such thing as a race that is pure, or the other race that falls in a category of darkness and evil. Being utterly lazy or being crazily working hard is depending on the individual itself. Telling if that race needs to work hard in order to get something they need or that race that is lazy to work is just a lot of bullshit. Correct me if I'm wrong, but that's how I see it.

Yes, I understand that people would never actually read this kind of article, but if someone does, I hope you'll understand that if we didn't change how we are right now, I don't think the world would change for a better peace at all.

PS:
(If there's anything grammatical error's that I need to change. Tell me about it)

A Little More of Me

Since I got bored with all the drama that always leave myself into a hectic world of headache and fever, I suppose I should just go ahead and shoot myself with words here about me. And besides, having myself stress out of things would just make my head blown into bits right? So anyway, like the title I would want to point out, yes it's more a little about myself. Since this is the way I actually observe myself and with the comments from my other friends as well so here it is.

Well don't get me wrong because I should have talk about myself at the beginning of my post when I created this, but it never beats to tell it later on right? So here goes. Yes basically I'm just a normal 21 (This year) old man who love to help friends around whenever they needed to. And yes from the observation of my friends, I'm quite shy in real life. Try asking them and I'm sure you'll know. And yes, I can talk properly inside the internet but I suppose that is quite common sometimes right? Talking part? Depends. I can talk properly if I really know that person well and if I kept meeting the person every time. Small and short? Yup I am. Well guess I can't blame myself for it if I'm sort and small anyway. Besides being small has its advantages anyway.

Oh right, yes, people said that I'm quite creepy when I'm mad. Not certain if its really true but I suppose they're the one who actually decides it since they're the ones who actually sees my face and not me. And normally when a guys sees a beautiful girl around, they would be like a wolf stalking its prey. Well I suppose it goes the same thing when girls sees handsome boys that sparkles right? Me? Nope, I actually don't care about it. Sounds like I'm lying but I'm not, trust me on this one. No mood to go around and scream like a bluttering idiot for people that is only nice at the outside. I prefer to see the person's personality, the outside part is just a bonus of it.

Sensitive? Yes, I suppose its one of the main thing which is good, and also bad. Detail explanation of it? Well basically I can't since I'm not even certain on where I should actually start. Eh...What else I could say on this. Oh well maybe I'll just stop here for the time being. I can't really think much at the moment and that's all I could say. I'll just add up once I know what I want to write inside here.

Seperation of Light and Darkness in Me

Hello there again to all! It's been a while that I haven't been writing things in this blog. Since I'm pretty much coming down with a fever, I suppose I can do some writing over here somehow. Although it's a bit odd and random but I suppose it's alright somehow. Well Basically, I felt I do have some kind of "Dual-Personality". Well not to say its real or anything but I suppose I can write some about it somehow since I do have the feeling of it~

I call them in a separate somehow so here they are.

Hikari (Light)
The time where I can be really nice towards other.
The time where I love to help others if they need.
The time where I always be pushing myself too hard that I never realized my own health
The time where my anger will not show, as I will only show my smile on my face.
The time where I actually can be sort of 'feminine'

Kuragari (Darkness)
This is where my limit breaks
This is where I'll protect other without thinking about my own life
This is where I will not smile
This is where I will not feel much pain
This is where, I'll use the power I have, and ignore anything in sight.

Call of Duty Members

So here it is. Another quite so random blog that I'll be writing about. And this time is about Call of Duty 4 game. Well actually it's just something like a stats on what kind of person me and my friends are in that game. It's nothing much to say about it but just to have fun about it.

Code Name:"Black Ace"
Personal Information:
Third in Command, First Division Unit, UN Spacy. Black Ace is the new codename that has been given towards him. One of the major experts in demolition. He's able to use the grenade launcher in a good manner of way and has his own way to use the grenade than the other member of the UN Spacy. His other specialty is the Rocket Launcher as well for really close range purpose. Compatible on long and mid range. Has a lack of ability on short-range shots. He also has the ability called "Extreme Jihad" where he would sacrifice himself to take out others.

Styles:
Training in Snipers and Rifle equipment.
Shotgun Veteran.
Normal Style Machine Gun Technique.
Normal Style SMG Technique.
Demolition Man.



Code Name:"Rawr"
Personal Information:
Second Chain In Command, First Division Unit Commander, UN Spacy. Rawr is the codename that has been given after the name "Ikea" was out of the league. He's one of the major experts in scouting the area for enemies and lays tactics towards them, although it fails sometimes, human mistakes. Can sometimes went berserk due to certain circumstances. Having one of the best SMG man ever been in the team. He was once a good grenade launcher man but has lost his touch as his aim suddenly went off. Good in Long, Mid and Short Range combat.

Styles:
SMG Veteran
Shotgun Vetaran
In training for Snipers

Codename:"Pisang"
Personal Information:
First Chain In Command, First Army Division Captain, UN Spacy. The codename hasn't been change ever since than the other man that has been with him. The name is given with the possibility for the captain to have an addiction towards bananas. One of the master member that even the other two can loose. Using a SMG without using scopes, as the scope are only as a decoration, the captain are name "The Heat-Seeking Bullet" due to its accuracy. He can even go hand-to-hand combat even when his bullets are depleted. Also known as the "Charger." But one of the major problems the captain has when it come to grenades where he always be going towards the direction where the grenades are.

Styles:
Charge Master
SMG Master
Unknown Style Rifle, Sniper and Machine Guns
C4 Master
Heat-Seeking Bullets

Codename: A14Zy

Personal Information:

New recruit in the UN Army Division. The codename is given due to some slight problem with the computer information. Intel gathered that this girl has some love interest with sniper rifle and the name was given "Bounty Hunter" from her comrades.

She also likes to use some other kind of Equipment given such as the C4 and also the Claymore. No other relevant information that has been given from the new recuit

Styles:

Bounty Hunter

Sniper Veteren

C4 And Claymore Mastery

Growing Members

Well it has been a while that I haven't been writing this blog I suppose. Guess the past one does not sound really happy but I suppose this would. So here is another random blog that I'm writing at the moment. Yay! For it!

So here it is. Ever since Chi went off, boy I sure miss her a lot over here but I suppose I need to continue with my life so anyway, she left with with two cute and cuddly children, both female though so I can't really complain that much about it. I called one as Azu-Nyan, I suppose some people may know where I get the name from. And the other is called Assy, a name from a friend of mine in a browser game.

"Here's Azu-Nyan~!"

"Lets not forget about Assy~!"

And if I can remember it right, I think it has either been six month for me being with them and they sure grow big now, when I first saw them from birth, they were small and fragile. I can even see a crocked tail from Assy. They were so cute. At first I was wondering, why Chi's stomach suddenly, that's why I ended up going into my room and have a look and there they are, two little children sleeping soundly in the cupboard. Guess as time pass, things does change, Chi is nowhere to be found yet, but I hope I can find her again. The children are getting bigger and now, new members have arrive.

I kept on wondering, it would be really nice nice to see them roaming around happily. I would really hope that they would have a wonderful life ahead of them.

Is There Going To Be Any Peace To The World?

It has been a while for me not to write anything inside my blog at the moment since I'm either very much busy with my work or I am just plain "don't have any idea" on what write about inside the blog at this point of time. Well since I have something to say about, I suppose I could give it a shot on what kind of points I would be giving now.

Anyway, as far as I could see now, the world that we are living in now is changing and I don't mean at a good way, sadly for sure. I'm not so sure why is the reason behind the mystery of it but I really hope that the world we are living in now, will be a better place to lived in.

"Will there A Peaceful World For Us all?"

Yeah like I said before, the world is changing for the worse. Is there any reason behind of it? Is it because of the environment that would change others? Is it because of how parents treat their children nowadays? Or is it because the method of teaching in school has gone wrong? Is it because of the lack of freedom that they get from home? Probably there are a lot of other questions that some people would ask if they noticed about the world going upside down.

Ever since I've been reading the newspaper, there sure is a lot of incident happening and I'm not so sure how much that I've been seeing in it. From adult and even children now, and from male to female. It's quite hard to not notice it as these kinds of people are doing crimes. It's much more worse to see people at a very young age doing crimes. So ever considering on what will happen over the 10 years more? Will it change? I would not want to think about the negative part of it if the world never going to change.

True, I still would want to believe that mankind will eventually change someday. And I hope that one day, there is a person who is able to stand for the world and helped changed for the better.

Don't Ever Give Up Hope!

"Don't give up! Let's continue on our fight!"

Well as I say as typical as usual, true people would not even want to read a long boring essay that I kept on putting up in a quite amount of times. Anyhow, read the post or not, I'll still post it around anyway so here it is. Maybe I have made this post before, I think I have but I guess it went missing somewhere but continue on. Maybe the past time I've seen in my life, there are certain people who give up their lives easily because the world turns against them. But, I do see there are people who is still willing to continue on even they are moving into a hard life and I respect them quite a lot.

So why do people quit in the middle of the road and have a thought of the world we live in is a harsh place to live in? Guess it may be possible because they think that the world is not being fair with them in life. For me, life isn't a smooth road where we always have good things happen all the time. Take it as a test for it so we can overcome the obstacle that has been put in. But I wonder one thing though, there are certain people who does not seem to appreciate what they get for some reason. Odd? Well I guess it is I suppose.

Anyway back to the topic. So yeah, believe and don't ever give up. Maybe I have said this countless of times in my past post but I want to said it again and again, all of us are human beings in this world, we can't just judged people because of who they are, what they are or even where they come from. Humans have the ability to change themselves if they are willing to. True, there would be bad apples around the community but still, we can't just judge people just because of their genders, age, religion or race. Try to open and see. All of them have good people and even bad people inside them.

But one thing, if I do have the power to change something for the world, I wish for all of us to have a peaceful and harmony in this world. No matter who we are, what we are and where we come from. Even if I need to fight my way through or even I'll drop down on the ground. I'll continue on to see if I'm able to change the world, even if I have to crawl my way up.

Is It Worth To Fight With One Another?

"Will it ever end?"

Guess I've been a little active on this blog thing once again. Maybe it's because there is quite a lot of things that is running into my head at the moment. Maybe it does sounds like it's not much of an importance for me to think about it but it still does disturbs me when I'm thinking of it. And I guess this would be one general thing I would be writing for now since I can't express with my own word vocally but I still can express myself by writing this so here it goes.

So basically, why is the reason for all of us to fight with each other? Is it because we are in a different race? Is it because of our skin color that make people fight with each other? Is it because of our religion, we need to go to war and kill innocent people around the globe? Actually, I don't really have much of an idea why these small issue can make things into a huge battlefield. It's not worth to fight and kill each other because of these kinds things. So yeah, we're different in race, color skin, age or even religion. But do we think there is similarity that all of us have? Yes we do have. We are all human beings living in the same world that is called Earth. We also believe that the one who created us in this world is our god, am I right? Everyone would believe that I presume.

But still, why are we killing each other. Not to mention there are even war going on an another place and it seems to be endless for me. But really, why? It it because the lust of power there are people who ended up showing it to others to be scared or are they the ones that is scared that they will loose those powers towards some other people? If only the power that has been used to protect humanity, not to destroy them. Maybe there are people who wish to have powers, so do I. But for me, I would want to use them so that I could protect those people I cared about. I even would do my best to protect my own country as well because, it is my home after all.

"This world, it's still worth to protect. No matter how bad it is now."

So do we really obtain peace by going out for war or fight? Guess I'm still thinking about it for the time being. All I could see is that, innocent lives had been pulled into the battlefield as well. I wonder, I wonder one day, will we loose our humanity? Guess times would tells its story unless if there are people who is willing to change the course of life.

Why We Always Be The Blame?

Okay so here's another one of my saying that people would seldom reads about it but yeah I need to get this off my chest one way or another. For the people who actually read this, I appreciate it and be sure to read it carefully before pointing out things since I do not want to have any misunderstanding between us.

So anyway, so here is my question, are all the men in the world that bad (Which includes me as well)? Why there are some girls who think it that way? Hearing from them saying this makes me feel upset and sad at the same time. I mean, I am man too so of course I would felt I've been stab right on the back. I don't have a decent clue why they would think it that way. But one thing for sure, those simple minded thinking should stop at once. Why I say so? Because you can't just judge humans that are good or bad by genders. It's just irrelevant and It's just like we're being bombard with things just because others did it.

So here's my statement to say it but I'm pretty sure it's pointless since hardly people ever going to read it anyway. So for girls who think this way, do you think that all the girls are good as an angel then, and the boys are the devil from hell? If you think it that way, I swear, seeing those kinds of people like you disgust me. So girls never do anything wrong in life? Like hell I would ever going to believe that part.

For me, everyone in this world does something right or wrong, no matter what:

Age
Religion
Gender

Open your eyes and see the world! Boys or girls, we are the same! There is no such thing as the other gender is good or bad. We all have good people, we all have bad people living among us. Do not be judgmental about others and cramp your mind into a bean! It's ridiculous. So why? No matter how we look at it, pointing fingers without realizing is just what human loves to do. Those kinds of attitude needs to be change one way or another or all of us will loose our humanity someday.

A Song For The First Time

Well I can't really say for sure this would be my amazing song that I have sang during the first week back at my apartment. Although I do feel it's not much of a time to hear it but guess I do want to hear from what others has to say about it. So here it is and I hope you all will enjoy it somehow.

Life

Well here I go again, another long lecture I would be giving. I doubt that people would ever going to read this one anyway but I appreciate those people who read them. Okay, continue on about my little topic over here for now. I ever wonder about this part for some reason. There are people who thinks that their lives is much more miserable then the others around them and the only solution is by taking their own lives away. One way or another, it sounds like they are not appreciating the life that has been given to them.

What I meant to say is that, do you think that our lives will be 100% good all the time? I would say no over here. I'm pretty sure that all the human beings that lives in this world would have their good and bad days as well. It is how you manage it that will make you strong again. The world did not end for you if you did badly in the examination, or if you didn't manage to get into a relationship with anyone at the moment.

Sometimes people would think that their would is crumbling against them. Yeah true, I felt the same as well about it, no doubt about it. But I still able to stand here and didn't give up yet now do I? I did not get good grades for my important examination but I still continue on till I finally manage to get inside the university. And yes, I'm still not in a relationship at the moment and ain't complaining at all. Sometimes, if you do have bad or miserable times does not mean that you can't make another road for yourself. We are human after all and god gives us one special ability for us apart from those animals or plants and it's the ability to think.

Use the thinking ability that we have and think positively about it. Sometimes I really hated people who does not appreciate life that has been given. I feel like giving them a punch on the face because of it. Do you think it is easy to give birth a life that we have with only a flick of a finger? No! We given a life only once in the world and take care of it wisely as it is. Yes we can use our lives in order to protect the people we care and all too but don't waste them in an inappropriate way. If life gets you down, we still have people who we can share around to make it better right? Friends, family and even love ones. Listening to them would help you if you're in a pinch. Just be sure to hear what their advice were and not ignoring them completely. They're there to help you, not to make your life much more worse then before. Just be sure to know who you trust first before doing it that's all.

In life, there is no shortcuts of having happiness in life, you need to go though a lot of hardships in it. It's a matter of time that we will realized that it soon come to you. The only thing that should be hold up is never to give up and never to give up the light of hope that is inside. Get back up on your feet after you have fallen no matter how many times you have fall down badly. It's meaningless if you give up easily.