It has been for quite sometime that I haven't been writing this blog I would say. I guess, when I have trouble in my mind, I would end up coming here and write things that I've been thinking a lot lately in my mind. For this one? I suppose I would want to express myself again in the end. So here goes then.
For the small detail out of it, I wanted to say, that I was in a relationship with a person that I love at first, but I guess it did not go the way it should be. We have some issues behind them but I guess I'll let off that detail out of it since I'm not here to trash people around or even give that person a bad reputation.
What I'm writing here is just to wonder, what is that I am doing is right or wrong. No it's not about relationship, I assure you. It is about a safety of a person's life that I'm concerning about at this point of time. For the past time, I do notice her being emotionally unstable due to problems that she have in life after we parted ways. Yes, I do am concern about it, although I was insulted in the end. And for the last two to three days, she did gave me a call and I did not pick them up because I was praying, and in the end she left me a voice mail, an unpleasant if I remember it right. And after that voice mail, I did try to send her a text message asking what is her problem out of it, but failed to get any replies. And until now, there's no sign of it, even with multiple calling and text messages that I have sent. This made me worried that something bad might have happen. Call me stupid or being paranoid, but when it comes to human life, I don't wish to see those precious life to be lost. I'm worried not because she was in a relationship with me or whatsoever it is, its because I feel it is wrong to let a person do something irrational and with possibility, to loose a life in the end of it.
And yes, this relationship? It's was a long distance relationship. True, there's a lot of people does not believe in this kind of relationship since the person is not there face to face or psychically be with us. For me, I believe it can happen either way, just need to have the effort for it. And people do say that we can't even see what they are doing behind of us, which I can point out, is a lack of trust.
But like I said, I am not talking about my past relationship. What I want to point out is the 'trust' that I have mentioned there. So basically, what most people say is that, we can't trust people who are further or far away then us, and only believe the ones that is near and psychically be with us? To tell the truth, even the ones who are close to us, can stab us behind our backs, so why putting a blame on the ones that are far that us as well, am I correct? I have friends who live far away, and I still able to put my trust in them. What can I say, if it's true then it's true then, and if it's a lie, that its a lie. We can't just judge people just because they live far away from our eyes. When we can't see them, does not mean they are doing bad things. Only god will know what is going on that's for sure. Plus, if there's no solid evidence on what they are doing, we can't just simply judge people.
Yes I understand people does something wrong or mistakes in their life, and I'm sure everyone in this world does it too, which includes me, because we are human in the end. And if god can forgive those mistakes that we made, why, we as humans can't? True, there are bad people and good people in this world, but we do know that even bad people can turn out good in the end, and even good people can turn out bad well, we never know when that will happen. Maybe it's because of experience or whatever has happen upon the person, made them not to believe in things anymore.
I suppose that would be most of it I want to talk about, but... yes, for me, in a total confusion, I'm not sure what am I doing is right, or even wrong either way. But this is what I believe.
