Remember

As usual, it has been quite a while that I haven't touch this blog. Maybe the reason out of it is because, I haven't give much thought about what needs to be written here. Now that I have some things in mind, perhaps I should start writing it now. Just for the sake of sharing things out, although I know people don't really bother much to read this anyway.

"Family"

In any cases, I know my title isn't that fancy compare to what others will do but, perhaps that one short title can say it all on this one so here I go then. So, usually how many people in this world actually remembers how much their parents had sacrifice their time and money for their children? I'm not sure about that but I'm assuming that there are quite a number of people who actually does. I'm sure some of you would remember, the one who actually spend their money and life, to make their children happy, would be the parents right? Yes I know there are some parents doesn't care about their children, but what I'm talking about now is the one that does.

To put it simply, our parents had sacrifice a lot to us, spending time with us from the start of being a baby, until the time we get married. But, in some cases in the world, even if the parents cared for their children a lot, the children themselves ended up abandoning them in the end, leaving those poor souls all alone in distress. They need to realized one thing, humans don't live forever in this world as people would bound to go back where they belong as time passes by. For example, if the parents are getting older and unwell in the process, it would be good to come back for a while and take care of them. If the family had brothers or sisters, it would be nice to take turn to take care of the parents, so at least the parents won't be left alone. Pretty much sure the parents would put up a smile on their faces.

"When you're hungry, they'll always be there for you to make your tummy full"

Try to think back about some of the things that had happen, if you, for example, had children that has working well, a good marriage life, etc. But one day, you fall ill badly and will be out of the world soon, but none of your children actually comes by and take care of you. How do you feel on that? I'm certain that you will feel rather sad for raising those kinds of children in this world. If you have these kinds of reflection inside of you towards your future children, I'm sure you'll feel bad on doing the same to your parents right now.

"There are parents will sacrifice a lot of things for the sake of their children"

Honestly, it's not too late to go back and take care of our parents when they are in the hospital beds. Because, once the time comes, we may not be able to get another chance again to see our parents face and seek forgiveness for what has been done. Because, as humans in this world, we can only live once, and that is the only chance that god gives to us all. One of the things that can make parents smile, are also their children after all. Don't be a person who end up leaving them alone or letting others take care of them.

Although I'm not certain that this blog would actually makes any sense out of it, but, all I hope it does then. For now, I'll be updating it as best as I can, if I have the time for it.

Trying My Best

I suppose it's quite true though, about what one of best friend had told me, that I wasn't really as happy and cheerful like last year. I should thank her that because, she is actually one of them who noticed about it, even the both of us stayed far away.

What can I say much about it, last year is one of the year that I actually am happy after all, and pretty much obvious, I know the reason why. One of it is that, I manage to make new best friends, even we only talked around inside the internet as our medium of communication. The other one? All I can say, it's because of that one person, my life did change for the better and made my world into a place where it is not empty anymore.

Yes, I was in a relationship last year, and honestly to tell? I was quite happy with it though, really happy about it. But yeah, I guess in the end, it didn't work out as proper as we are hoping for, and I guess that is one downfall that I am having right now. True, most people think I am still cheerful and be my usual self over here, but inside, I suppose it's not the same as people would think it would be. I didn't realized that among my friend who realized it, the one who stay far away from me noticed it more that others.

I won't lie that I miss those memories that I have though. And yes, it hurts really badly that even myself can't stop crying about it. People might say it is pointless to cry over it, but for me, it's because the person I really love inside my heart, that I end up crying in the end. It's not because of some cheap love that I am doing, it's really pure love that I really am doing and wanted to cherish it the most inside of me.

I suppose up until now, the only person that I blame is just myself.
All I can say, is just, I'm scared that I would again, hurt another soul in life.

Right or Wrong?

It has been for quite sometime that I haven't been writing this blog I would say. I guess, when I have trouble in my mind, I would end up coming here and write things that I've been thinking a lot lately in my mind. For this one? I suppose I would want to express myself again in the end. So here goes then.

For the small detail out of it, I wanted to say, that I was in a relationship with a person that I love at first, but I guess it did not go the way it should be. We have some issues behind them but I guess I'll let off that detail out of it since I'm not here to trash people around or even give that person a bad reputation.

What I'm writing here is just to wonder, what is that I am doing is right or wrong. No it's not about relationship, I assure you. It is about a safety of a person's life that I'm concerning about at this point of time. For the past time, I do notice her being emotionally unstable due to problems that she have in life after we parted ways. Yes, I do am concern about it, although I was insulted in the end. And for the last two to three days, she did gave me a call and I did not pick them up because I was praying, and in the end she left me a voice mail, an unpleasant if I remember it right. And after that voice mail, I did try to send her a text message asking what is her problem out of it, but failed to get any replies. And until now, there's no sign of it, even with multiple calling and text messages that I have sent. This made me worried that something bad might have happen. Call me stupid or being paranoid, but when it comes to human life, I don't wish to see those precious life to be lost. I'm worried not because she was in a relationship with me or whatsoever it is, its because I feel it is wrong to let a person do something irrational and with possibility, to loose a life in the end of it.

And yes, this relationship? It's was a long distance relationship. True, there's a lot of people does not believe in this kind of relationship since the person is not there face to face or psychically be with us. For me, I believe it can happen either way, just need to have the effort for it. And people do say that we can't even see what they are doing behind of us, which I can point out, is a lack of trust.

But like I said, I am not talking about my past relationship. What I want to point out is the 'trust' that I have mentioned there. So basically, what most people say is that, we can't trust people who are further or far away then us, and only believe the ones that is near and psychically be with us? To tell the truth, even the ones who are close to us, can stab us behind our backs, so why putting a blame on the ones that are far that us as well, am I correct? I have friends who live far away, and I still able to put my trust in them. What can I say, if it's true then it's true then, and if it's a lie, that its a lie. We can't just judge people just because they live far away from our eyes. When we can't see them, does not mean they are doing bad things. Only god will know what is going on that's for sure. Plus, if there's no solid evidence on what they are doing, we can't just simply judge people.

Yes I understand people does something wrong or mistakes in their life, and I'm sure everyone in this world does it too, which includes me, because we are human in the end. And if god can forgive those mistakes that we made, why, we as humans can't? True, there are bad people and good people in this world, but we do know that even bad people can turn out good in the end, and even good people can turn out bad well, we never know when that will happen. Maybe it's because of experience or whatever has happen upon the person, made them not to believe in things anymore.


I suppose that would be most of it I want to talk about, but... yes, for me, in a total confusion, I'm not sure what am I doing is right, or even wrong either way. But this is what I believe.

Not So Productive

"What to do... What to do..."

*Sigh*

I suppose I'll be a little off on this one for the day. Since I have nothing much that I could do at this time I'm going to write this one out a bit out of the blues. Nothing that important I would want to say but yeah... This is for not being productive for the day. Lets see here... What did I do today...

*Thinks for a while*

Since the Maple server is offline in morning, and most of my friends isn't around, which also the silent day in Facebook where my friends aren't there as well, I decided to take a little stroll to my campus ground. It's better then just staying home right? Again I decided to head to my campus a bit. Went out around 7AM in the morning, looking for the campus bus to arrive. But a while of waiting and the bus did not pop up (Or I think I miss it *Shrugs*) I decided to take the bus to Sunway Pyramid. Was a little bored, so I took a little long walk towards my campus from Sunway, since it's not thaaaaat far.

"Manage....to arrive..."

Took a while for me to arrive, I guess it was still around 8AM in the morning. So what can I do? Eat breakfast or course~ And yeah... Since there was a heavy storm yesterday, two lamp was destroyed and some tents are still... not in good shape too. Oh right, I also notice one tree blocking the path, which seems like a small tunnel for me to go through too. So yes, hearing some people laughing and looking around the place.... Alone, I just kept on eating my breakfast as usual. And I suppose all I get after waiting and so so on is... They thought me as a new student there

"N-New student? After like...3 years there?"
*Sweatdrops*

Of all things to being with, I didn't expect they would take me as a new student there. So yeah, since there's nothing much to do there anymore, I decided to head back home.... Walking all the way back to Sunway to take the bus. Yeah... good exercise I suppose so I can't complain on that one. Good part is, the bus just arrive in time after I reach there so it's not all that bad to wait (Was hoping to get some drink before getting on the bus actually)

So there, got back home, Maple is still under maintenance, waiting for others to be online, and even waiting for someone to come back from school. But at least I manage to text one of my Facebook friends a bit for a while, at least I didn't become that lonely. So what else after everything went silent? Nap!

"Um... Still didn't hear anything yet.."

Woke up around 2PM or something, that special someone still haven't arrive back home, talking to my other friend a bit and go around hunting for equipments in Maple. Yes... It was totally horrible that one of my armor got destroy due to the scroll

*Sweatdrops*

Still waiting for that person to reply my text... well at last she did though but sadly...
It's only for a while... Which makes me sad... A lot... Quite a lot

"Me is sad uguu..."
*Sniff*

And now, since I'm a little tired of playing Maple (Would continue tomorrow perhaps) now all I can do is just go around and hug my pillow... Pillow is so fluffy... Okay maybe the last part of hugging is a bit random but still, it's so fluffy!

*Hugs it tightly*

Oh... I realized the bump on the knee due to the kitchen, it has leave me a mark... Purple one.
*Sweatdrops*

Farewell 2010 & Welcome 2011

Ah... It seems like time passes like the wind. Um I suppose I didn't have much to say about it but somehow I do feel like I'm going to miss this year a lot I suppose. With all those happiness and sadness, all come together to become a bundle of memory that will be stored inside my brain system

"Eh it's over already?"

I suppose there are a lot of things that had happen in these years, bad things and good things. Made new friends, and so so on. Well I even manage to get something special too this year I would say. Um? Want to know what it is? It's classified information ^_~

But really, for some reason, this year really went like a breeze, and plus I never even realized that soon I'll be graduating as well within next year. Ah... How am I going miss this one... I was hoping to spend time in this year but I guess all will be memories I would say


"Here we'll welcome 2011 in our lives!"

Pretty much I would not go much of a detail of it or I may end up crying here when writing this blog. So my year 2010, I wish you goodbye. It was fun really. And here I am will be standing here, waiting for the New Year to come by. 2011, bring on! Give us the excitement and adventure that we going to have soon!

The Changing Reality

So who says I don't have any jealousy in me? I suppose I do I guess. And no, that that kind of horribly jealous that I wanted to end up throwing myself out of the window, just sometimes I do wish I can do the things like some people can during my younger age. Since that's not possible, best to move on right~?

And as far as I can see, it does seems to change...Quite a lot, within 21 years on my life (Yes yes, I just manage to reach 21 years old a couple of days ago on when writing this post ^^;) Since during my childhood times, it's like most children are more towards things outdoors like...Lets see.. Playing hide and seek, those police and thieves game, kite flying, playing as Power Rangers and some other sorts of things. Nothing that concerns much on technologies.

Now, well...Guess its rather different, most of the children I see manage to get a laptop in the early stage, PSP, Nintendo DS, PS3, Xbox 360, Wii, and other kinds of things that they could actually do at this time. It's quite interesting on how they can actually obtain these things easily, even for me, I can't hardly get a PS1 when I was young.

Not to say it's a bad thing on not getting them ^^;;
Just talking about it that's all

But yeah, I guess, things does change a lot on how the olden days and the modern days are right now. Maybe some are still not able to get them but, usually I do see most of the children get what they want I would say. Either way, even I don't get those kinds of stuff like some others are, I'm still be able to be happy about it at the end ^^.

Perhaps I can obtain them, but by that time arrives, I would be aging. Maybe I'll be some sort of old person who still play Rune Factory Frontier in Wii then when the time comes by~

Birthday Days

Being a bit more free for today, I suppose I would just write my blog for today I would say, apart from some people bugging me in Facebook that is but anyhow, it seems like my day has finally passed as I celebrated my 21st birthday on the 18th December.


Eto.. I suppose this might be a short post but still, I can say I did enjoy myself with my family during my celebration of birthday. I suppose I still did not expect much from the whole thing but I did enjoy myself either way.

Plus, even my friend and my Facebook friends did give me their birthday wishes as well, so I'm rather happy about it. In addition, I did get a special one too for this year. For me, even a small piece of happiness that they give me, I'll be happy about it really~


So overall, even it's not a big 21st birthday party like other people does, or even get bundles of presents like any other children around that is lucky enough, but still, I'm happy about it either way ^^~

Support Unit or Negligence Unit?

"Ug...My head...Man I need to get more rest soon..."

Sorry that I never really update my blog that much considering the bundles of assignments that has been piling up day by day. Not to mention I'm having a lack of time of doing them as well. I do hope one way or another I'll be able to complete them nicely before November starts. Since my head is spinning around out of tiredness and fever, I would like to put this up before I head for my rest.

I'm sure you all wonder why I set the title of "Support or Negligence" as my topic this time. Actually what I wanted to pointed out is about what parents are doing towards their children. I have been observing on the problems that some people have been through and it seems like there is a little trouble when it comes to parents taking care of their children nowadays. True, maybe I'm not suitable on talking about this considering I haven't even start my own family but still, I do have my share of ideas on what I wanted to say. Back to the topic that I've wanted to point out, is there a reason why I questioned the capabilities of some parents at the moment? Yeah I do question their capabilities at this time.

Alright, to narrow it down a little more better, I'll take studying as one of the problem that is facing by the children. If the child did not want to study, what should we do? We give them advice and try to persuade them on doing their homework. But, the problem now is, even when the child is trying their hardest to study for the subjects, they are still been label as being a "Lazy" child or even scolded them by throwing all kinds of irrelevant or untrue information. Is there any kinds of problem for a child to study? No right? Pretty much sure the parents suppose to be more supportive on giving them encouragement for them to study better instead of neglecting and throwing tantrum to those children when they wanted to study.

"No really..."
"Do not let your child ended up doing things that would end their life"

Getting the worse of it, after the child was trying their best but failed to archive a result they wanted, for example, the student wanted to get an 'A' but ended up getting a 'B' as a grade, what did the parents do? They didn't encourage them, they insulted them more and even let out a long endless complain for the child to hear. Isn't that interesting, the parents first complain how lazy the child was even when they are studying, and they still continue to complain when the child get a result that can still consider a good one. So, what does the parent really want from their children actually? They can't even make a good decision out of it and all they do is just complain from top to bottom and everything they child does seems wrong. If the parent actually realized, it can actually put a heavy pressure towards the child itself.

"Is it wrong? I studied but they're never satisfied with it"
"It would be worse if I never actually touch the book at all!"
"Either way, both of the route I took seems wrong for them"
"So which one do they want me to do then? I'm confused!"

Its true, that we need to set up a rule for the children to follow. But, complaining or insulting the children that is actually trying to do a good deed out of it isn't the way of parenting. The parents should be supporting more if they child is eager to study, not condemning them till their spirits broke apart. And I'm even sure that in an examination, all parents wanted to see their children score A's in their paper. But if the child didn't pass that expatiation after trying hard, encourage them, not demotivate them off until the state that they think themselves as a useless human being.

Yes like I have said, I may not have much experiance sine I'm still far away of being father of my children, but seeing how some parents treated their children like a bag of rubbish is plain horrible. Anyhow I'm going to stop here for now. That is all I can say about it at the moment. All I could hope for that some of the parents will be able to take note about it one way or another.

Another Passing Days

So here I am again, I suppose this would be another kind of random talking I would just spit out around and I guess I'll have fun a bit with this then. So it seems like during my Hari Raya times, I finally manage to get a week break from campus life. Pretty much things are going well too although I do try to find something to do to keep me occupied for some reason. Not to mention I finally manage to get back to my hometown and celebrate things with my family. It's a good thing that I can at least ease my tense and headache out and enjoy myself for a while.

"Wonder what will I do after this..."

And pretty much I can see I still have some work cut out for me with the assignments that have been left for me to do it. I guess continuing to do it back would be a priority right now. And since I did manage to get a new assignment for someone with the tense of getting it done on the 15 September, I suppose that work is the one that I need to take priority for now. Well I can do four lesson plans without having any sleep with the advancement of going to class after that, pretty much sure I can handle drawing pictures to people without having any sleep I would say.

Why It's Almost Impossible to Change

"If the people's mentality won't change..."
"I don't think the world would change either."

Looks like it's time for me to get a little serious on this one. Although I would understand if people out there would not actually be reading this but anyhow. This time I would really like to express myself what has been bothering me at this moment. For some reason, I didn't really have much of a clue why would race be such a problem in our world anyway. For some reason I don't understand about it at all. True, it may not seem to be my kind of problem to scratch around but still, it really bothers me quite a lot.

Maybe they still don't understand about it somehow. Pretty much myself I can't really explain about it either but, one way or another, I still wish to express myself no matter what the cost is. Look here, from what I see inside myself is a child that is born from two different kinds of world where my parents came from a different group of race. Heck, even I can say that one of my friend has a background that came from three different group of race and we can live in harmony and peace without any kinds of argument whatsoever at all. But somehow, there are still lots of people that can't live together peacefully for some reason.

What's my point on this post you all may ask? What my point is, is there really a reason why we can't co-exist to live with each other peacefully? Is there any kinds of reason at all? Is it because of a small misunderstanding we ended up making it big? Is it because we want to show who is right and who is wrong? Or It is because we want to show who is much more better and much more superior? Somehow, when I see it back, it's rather pointless to be arguing with each other throat.

Seriously, look back on who we are. True, we are different in terms of our skin color, our race, our religion, age and our gender. But really think back deeply inside your mind. We are actually the same one way or another. We are all humans, we all share the same blood color and we all share the same world called Earth. Do we ever encounter a race that has different color of blood? No. Do we ever see a human with a different religion that has 4 legs, 3 eyes and 4 legs? No. Reality check, we are all humans.

But still, there are still people out there who wasn't able to think deeply in their minds. For me, I don't care what kind of race, religion whatsoever it is. All I know is, among all of us human in this world, there is bad and there is good people. There is no such thing as a race that is pure, or the other race that falls in a category of darkness and evil. Being utterly lazy or being crazily working hard is depending on the individual itself. Telling if that race needs to work hard in order to get something they need or that race that is lazy to work is just a lot of bullshit. Correct me if I'm wrong, but that's how I see it.

Yes, I understand that people would never actually read this kind of article, but if someone does, I hope you'll understand that if we didn't change how we are right now, I don't think the world would change for a better peace at all.

PS:
(If there's anything grammatical error's that I need to change. Tell me about it)

A Little More of Me

Since I got bored with all the drama that always leave myself into a hectic world of headache and fever, I suppose I should just go ahead and shoot myself with words here about me. And besides, having myself stress out of things would just make my head blown into bits right? So anyway, like the title I would want to point out, yes it's more a little about myself. Since this is the way I actually observe myself and with the comments from my other friends as well so here it is.

Well don't get me wrong because I should have talk about myself at the beginning of my post when I created this, but it never beats to tell it later on right? So here goes. Yes basically I'm just a normal 21 (This year) old man who love to help friends around whenever they needed to. And yes from the observation of my friends, I'm quite shy in real life. Try asking them and I'm sure you'll know. And yes, I can talk properly inside the internet but I suppose that is quite common sometimes right? Talking part? Depends. I can talk properly if I really know that person well and if I kept meeting the person every time. Small and short? Yup I am. Well guess I can't blame myself for it if I'm sort and small anyway. Besides being small has its advantages anyway.

Oh right, yes, people said that I'm quite creepy when I'm mad. Not certain if its really true but I suppose they're the one who actually decides it since they're the ones who actually sees my face and not me. And normally when a guys sees a beautiful girl around, they would be like a wolf stalking its prey. Well I suppose it goes the same thing when girls sees handsome boys that sparkles right? Me? Nope, I actually don't care about it. Sounds like I'm lying but I'm not, trust me on this one. No mood to go around and scream like a bluttering idiot for people that is only nice at the outside. I prefer to see the person's personality, the outside part is just a bonus of it.

Sensitive? Yes, I suppose its one of the main thing which is good, and also bad. Detail explanation of it? Well basically I can't since I'm not even certain on where I should actually start. Eh...What else I could say on this. Oh well maybe I'll just stop here for the time being. I can't really think much at the moment and that's all I could say. I'll just add up once I know what I want to write inside here.

Seperation of Light and Darkness in Me

Hello there again to all! It's been a while that I haven't been writing things in this blog. Since I'm pretty much coming down with a fever, I suppose I can do some writing over here somehow. Although it's a bit odd and random but I suppose it's alright somehow. Well Basically, I felt I do have some kind of "Dual-Personality". Well not to say its real or anything but I suppose I can write some about it somehow since I do have the feeling of it~

I call them in a separate somehow so here they are.

Hikari (Light)
The time where I can be really nice towards other.
The time where I love to help others if they need.
The time where I always be pushing myself too hard that I never realized my own health
The time where my anger will not show, as I will only show my smile on my face.
The time where I actually can be sort of 'feminine'

Kuragari (Darkness)
This is where my limit breaks
This is where I'll protect other without thinking about my own life
This is where I will not smile
This is where I will not feel much pain
This is where, I'll use the power I have, and ignore anything in sight.

Call of Duty Members

So here it is. Another quite so random blog that I'll be writing about. And this time is about Call of Duty 4 game. Well actually it's just something like a stats on what kind of person me and my friends are in that game. It's nothing much to say about it but just to have fun about it.

Code Name:"Black Ace"
Personal Information:
Third in Command, First Division Unit, UN Spacy. Black Ace is the new codename that has been given towards him. One of the major experts in demolition. He's able to use the grenade launcher in a good manner of way and has his own way to use the grenade than the other member of the UN Spacy. His other specialty is the Rocket Launcher as well for really close range purpose. Compatible on long and mid range. Has a lack of ability on short-range shots. He also has the ability called "Extreme Jihad" where he would sacrifice himself to take out others.

Styles:
Training in Snipers and Rifle equipment.
Shotgun Veteran.
Normal Style Machine Gun Technique.
Normal Style SMG Technique.
Demolition Man.



Code Name:"Rawr"
Personal Information:
Second Chain In Command, First Division Unit Commander, UN Spacy. Rawr is the codename that has been given after the name "Ikea" was out of the league. He's one of the major experts in scouting the area for enemies and lays tactics towards them, although it fails sometimes, human mistakes. Can sometimes went berserk due to certain circumstances. Having one of the best SMG man ever been in the team. He was once a good grenade launcher man but has lost his touch as his aim suddenly went off. Good in Long, Mid and Short Range combat.

Styles:
SMG Veteran
Shotgun Vetaran
In training for Snipers

Codename:"Pisang"
Personal Information:
First Chain In Command, First Army Division Captain, UN Spacy. The codename hasn't been change ever since than the other man that has been with him. The name is given with the possibility for the captain to have an addiction towards bananas. One of the master member that even the other two can loose. Using a SMG without using scopes, as the scope are only as a decoration, the captain are name "The Heat-Seeking Bullet" due to its accuracy. He can even go hand-to-hand combat even when his bullets are depleted. Also known as the "Charger." But one of the major problems the captain has when it come to grenades where he always be going towards the direction where the grenades are.

Styles:
Charge Master
SMG Master
Unknown Style Rifle, Sniper and Machine Guns
C4 Master
Heat-Seeking Bullets

Codename: A14Zy

Personal Information:

New recruit in the UN Army Division. The codename is given due to some slight problem with the computer information. Intel gathered that this girl has some love interest with sniper rifle and the name was given "Bounty Hunter" from her comrades.

She also likes to use some other kind of Equipment given such as the C4 and also the Claymore. No other relevant information that has been given from the new recuit

Styles:

Bounty Hunter

Sniper Veteren

C4 And Claymore Mastery

Growing Members

Well it has been a while that I haven't been writing this blog I suppose. Guess the past one does not sound really happy but I suppose this would. So here is another random blog that I'm writing at the moment. Yay! For it!

So here it is. Ever since Chi went off, boy I sure miss her a lot over here but I suppose I need to continue with my life so anyway, she left with with two cute and cuddly children, both female though so I can't really complain that much about it. I called one as Azu-Nyan, I suppose some people may know where I get the name from. And the other is called Assy, a name from a friend of mine in a browser game.

"Here's Azu-Nyan~!"

"Lets not forget about Assy~!"

And if I can remember it right, I think it has either been six month for me being with them and they sure grow big now, when I first saw them from birth, they were small and fragile. I can even see a crocked tail from Assy. They were so cute. At first I was wondering, why Chi's stomach suddenly, that's why I ended up going into my room and have a look and there they are, two little children sleeping soundly in the cupboard. Guess as time pass, things does change, Chi is nowhere to be found yet, but I hope I can find her again. The children are getting bigger and now, new members have arrive.

I kept on wondering, it would be really nice nice to see them roaming around happily. I would really hope that they would have a wonderful life ahead of them.

Is There Going To Be Any Peace To The World?

It has been a while for me not to write anything inside my blog at the moment since I'm either very much busy with my work or I am just plain "don't have any idea" on what write about inside the blog at this point of time. Well since I have something to say about, I suppose I could give it a shot on what kind of points I would be giving now.

Anyway, as far as I could see now, the world that we are living in now is changing and I don't mean at a good way, sadly for sure. I'm not so sure why is the reason behind the mystery of it but I really hope that the world we are living in now, will be a better place to lived in.

"Will there A Peaceful World For Us all?"

Yeah like I said before, the world is changing for the worse. Is there any reason behind of it? Is it because of the environment that would change others? Is it because of how parents treat their children nowadays? Or is it because the method of teaching in school has gone wrong? Is it because of the lack of freedom that they get from home? Probably there are a lot of other questions that some people would ask if they noticed about the world going upside down.

Ever since I've been reading the newspaper, there sure is a lot of incident happening and I'm not so sure how much that I've been seeing in it. From adult and even children now, and from male to female. It's quite hard to not notice it as these kinds of people are doing crimes. It's much more worse to see people at a very young age doing crimes. So ever considering on what will happen over the 10 years more? Will it change? I would not want to think about the negative part of it if the world never going to change.

True, I still would want to believe that mankind will eventually change someday. And I hope that one day, there is a person who is able to stand for the world and helped changed for the better.

Don't Ever Give Up Hope!

"Don't give up! Let's continue on our fight!"

Well as I say as typical as usual, true people would not even want to read a long boring essay that I kept on putting up in a quite amount of times. Anyhow, read the post or not, I'll still post it around anyway so here it is. Maybe I have made this post before, I think I have but I guess it went missing somewhere but continue on. Maybe the past time I've seen in my life, there are certain people who give up their lives easily because the world turns against them. But, I do see there are people who is still willing to continue on even they are moving into a hard life and I respect them quite a lot.

So why do people quit in the middle of the road and have a thought of the world we live in is a harsh place to live in? Guess it may be possible because they think that the world is not being fair with them in life. For me, life isn't a smooth road where we always have good things happen all the time. Take it as a test for it so we can overcome the obstacle that has been put in. But I wonder one thing though, there are certain people who does not seem to appreciate what they get for some reason. Odd? Well I guess it is I suppose.

Anyway back to the topic. So yeah, believe and don't ever give up. Maybe I have said this countless of times in my past post but I want to said it again and again, all of us are human beings in this world, we can't just judged people because of who they are, what they are or even where they come from. Humans have the ability to change themselves if they are willing to. True, there would be bad apples around the community but still, we can't just judge people just because of their genders, age, religion or race. Try to open and see. All of them have good people and even bad people inside them.

But one thing, if I do have the power to change something for the world, I wish for all of us to have a peaceful and harmony in this world. No matter who we are, what we are and where we come from. Even if I need to fight my way through or even I'll drop down on the ground. I'll continue on to see if I'm able to change the world, even if I have to crawl my way up.

Is It Worth To Fight With One Another?

"Will it ever end?"

Guess I've been a little active on this blog thing once again. Maybe it's because there is quite a lot of things that is running into my head at the moment. Maybe it does sounds like it's not much of an importance for me to think about it but it still does disturbs me when I'm thinking of it. And I guess this would be one general thing I would be writing for now since I can't express with my own word vocally but I still can express myself by writing this so here it goes.

So basically, why is the reason for all of us to fight with each other? Is it because we are in a different race? Is it because of our skin color that make people fight with each other? Is it because of our religion, we need to go to war and kill innocent people around the globe? Actually, I don't really have much of an idea why these small issue can make things into a huge battlefield. It's not worth to fight and kill each other because of these kinds things. So yeah, we're different in race, color skin, age or even religion. But do we think there is similarity that all of us have? Yes we do have. We are all human beings living in the same world that is called Earth. We also believe that the one who created us in this world is our god, am I right? Everyone would believe that I presume.

But still, why are we killing each other. Not to mention there are even war going on an another place and it seems to be endless for me. But really, why? It it because the lust of power there are people who ended up showing it to others to be scared or are they the ones that is scared that they will loose those powers towards some other people? If only the power that has been used to protect humanity, not to destroy them. Maybe there are people who wish to have powers, so do I. But for me, I would want to use them so that I could protect those people I cared about. I even would do my best to protect my own country as well because, it is my home after all.

"This world, it's still worth to protect. No matter how bad it is now."

So do we really obtain peace by going out for war or fight? Guess I'm still thinking about it for the time being. All I could see is that, innocent lives had been pulled into the battlefield as well. I wonder, I wonder one day, will we loose our humanity? Guess times would tells its story unless if there are people who is willing to change the course of life.

Why We Always Be The Blame?

Okay so here's another one of my saying that people would seldom reads about it but yeah I need to get this off my chest one way or another. For the people who actually read this, I appreciate it and be sure to read it carefully before pointing out things since I do not want to have any misunderstanding between us.

So anyway, so here is my question, are all the men in the world that bad (Which includes me as well)? Why there are some girls who think it that way? Hearing from them saying this makes me feel upset and sad at the same time. I mean, I am man too so of course I would felt I've been stab right on the back. I don't have a decent clue why they would think it that way. But one thing for sure, those simple minded thinking should stop at once. Why I say so? Because you can't just judge humans that are good or bad by genders. It's just irrelevant and It's just like we're being bombard with things just because others did it.

So here's my statement to say it but I'm pretty sure it's pointless since hardly people ever going to read it anyway. So for girls who think this way, do you think that all the girls are good as an angel then, and the boys are the devil from hell? If you think it that way, I swear, seeing those kinds of people like you disgust me. So girls never do anything wrong in life? Like hell I would ever going to believe that part.

For me, everyone in this world does something right or wrong, no matter what:

Age
Religion
Gender

Open your eyes and see the world! Boys or girls, we are the same! There is no such thing as the other gender is good or bad. We all have good people, we all have bad people living among us. Do not be judgmental about others and cramp your mind into a bean! It's ridiculous. So why? No matter how we look at it, pointing fingers without realizing is just what human loves to do. Those kinds of attitude needs to be change one way or another or all of us will loose our humanity someday.

A Song For The First Time

Well I can't really say for sure this would be my amazing song that I have sang during the first week back at my apartment. Although I do feel it's not much of a time to hear it but guess I do want to hear from what others has to say about it. So here it is and I hope you all will enjoy it somehow.

Life

Well here I go again, another long lecture I would be giving. I doubt that people would ever going to read this one anyway but I appreciate those people who read them. Okay, continue on about my little topic over here for now. I ever wonder about this part for some reason. There are people who thinks that their lives is much more miserable then the others around them and the only solution is by taking their own lives away. One way or another, it sounds like they are not appreciating the life that has been given to them.

What I meant to say is that, do you think that our lives will be 100% good all the time? I would say no over here. I'm pretty sure that all the human beings that lives in this world would have their good and bad days as well. It is how you manage it that will make you strong again. The world did not end for you if you did badly in the examination, or if you didn't manage to get into a relationship with anyone at the moment.

Sometimes people would think that their would is crumbling against them. Yeah true, I felt the same as well about it, no doubt about it. But I still able to stand here and didn't give up yet now do I? I did not get good grades for my important examination but I still continue on till I finally manage to get inside the university. And yes, I'm still not in a relationship at the moment and ain't complaining at all. Sometimes, if you do have bad or miserable times does not mean that you can't make another road for yourself. We are human after all and god gives us one special ability for us apart from those animals or plants and it's the ability to think.

Use the thinking ability that we have and think positively about it. Sometimes I really hated people who does not appreciate life that has been given. I feel like giving them a punch on the face because of it. Do you think it is easy to give birth a life that we have with only a flick of a finger? No! We given a life only once in the world and take care of it wisely as it is. Yes we can use our lives in order to protect the people we care and all too but don't waste them in an inappropriate way. If life gets you down, we still have people who we can share around to make it better right? Friends, family and even love ones. Listening to them would help you if you're in a pinch. Just be sure to hear what their advice were and not ignoring them completely. They're there to help you, not to make your life much more worse then before. Just be sure to know who you trust first before doing it that's all.

In life, there is no shortcuts of having happiness in life, you need to go though a lot of hardships in it. It's a matter of time that we will realized that it soon come to you. The only thing that should be hold up is never to give up and never to give up the light of hope that is inside. Get back up on your feet after you have fallen no matter how many times you have fall down badly. It's meaningless if you give up easily.